Diablo 3

As part of the World of Warcraft Annual Pass a couple of years ago, I got a free copy of Diablo 3. I wasn’t really well enough to play it, but now that Johan was playing the expansion and he said they’d made it a bit easier I decided to give it a go.

I’ve made myself a Wizard. So far she mostly runs around in a bra and not much else firing arcane missiles at various evil beings (and bookcases which hold gold instead of books). I’m hoping eventually she’ll gain some clothes as it’s got to be a bit cold. The story is interesting and the gameplay is easy enough on Normal for even my foggy brain. I’ve yet to come close to dying, and this is with me going pretty much blind during a boss fight (lasted about a minute – I just pressed my mouse buttons and when my vision came back it was obvious the boss had died a bit before). It’s impossible to fall off ledges and stuff, and I’ve rebound all my attacks to my mouse (a Razer Naga with 12 buttons on the side) so I rarely have to use the keyboard. I’m having fun and maybe my character will wear some clothes when she’s higher level.

Last week I had a date night with Johan. We got a takeaway and watched Despicable Me. It was a really good film and I was glad to see it. Unfortunately I’ve had quite a bit of payback since then and overall I’m not doing great. I’m not terrible either (can still get on computer and play some games) but needing a lot of sleep and having to take more medication than I really like to cope. A bit sucky but it could be a lot worse and I’ve been watching a lot of kittehs which has kept me very happy ๐Ÿ™‚

I’ve not been playing very much World of Warcraft recently, but when I have been in game I’ve been working on pet battles and getting the items from rares in Pandaria on Danni. Now I have decent gear (mostly from Ordos and from when I was still running flexi raids) the only ones I really struggle with are Jinyu and Pandaren at level 90/91, and both of them I can get down with a bit of luck with their casts (not healing with Pandaren, only one Torrent for Jinyu). I managed to get Glorious! not too long ago so now I’m only focusing on those with items I want (which is all of them that aren’t gear). Since a lot of it is just flying around looking for the rares it’s been quite relaxing.

One thing I’m happy about is the Battle.net launcher now lets me chat to people without being in a game ๐Ÿ˜€ I have a couple of friends I only talk to through Battle.net so being able to communicate with them even when I’m not able to be in WoW/Hearthstone/Diablo is awesome. Not that I’m actually using it much, but having the option is great. Yay for improvements!

The domperidone is still making me dopey. Because of this I’m now calling it dopeydone and it won’t get its name back until it stops making me so out of it. It’s helping a tiny bit with digestion (at least making my digestive system noisier) but not doing much for the nausea so I’m still needing cyclizine sometimes. The combination of dopeydone and cyclizine makes me really out of it and often sleep. Could be a lot worse though so I’m sticking with it for now in the hope the dopiness eases off at some point.

It’s currently Autism Awareness Month which I’m mostly ignoring. I did write a couple of tweets for Autism Awareness Day (2nd April) but otherwise I don’t plan on doing anything. I could have delayed my previous blog post until this month but meh ๐Ÿ˜› I’ve been having a lot of fun discussing people who lack autism with Johan though, and how weird they are and what a tragedy it is to lack autism ๐Ÿ˜‰

My sister Becca has been diagnosed with ME this week. It is not a surprise as such as she’s been ill for a while now, but still it’s sad as I don’t like her being ill. I’ve been lecturing her for a while to take it easy and stop pushing to do things, and she says she’ll actually do it now (she’s looked after me so knows what severe ME can be like). There’s definitely a genetic component to it, though interestingly Becca doesn’t have the hypermobility I have (nor can she touch her nose with her tongue, which everyone else can do). I’m going to try and support her as much as possible and hopefully she’ll learn from my mistakes and not become as ill as I am now. She told me she was bored, so I jokingly told her to start a blog. She actually did, and you can see it: waddlewddle.

Johan is currently defrosting the freezer. Turns out the fast freeze option has been on since we moved in, which would explain why the drawers had frozen solid. We’ve lost a bit of food but being able to use all the drawers again will be great and I did get an ice lolly which was nice ๐Ÿ™‚ This coming week we’ll be doing a big shop to restock the freezer and I’m hoping to write an email to social services asking about the hoist. I’ve also got various things to buy so that will be interesting. Hopefully I’ll start feeling a bit better as well ๐Ÿ™‚

Autism Functioning Levels

I woke up earlier this week having been dreaming about an argument/discussion I’d had on one of the ME groups on Facebook I’m a part of, and I’ve been meaning to blog about it for a while so now is a good time. Someone posted an image on there which was about invisible illnesses, and included autism in the list. I mentioned how calling autism an illness annoys me (it does) and it turned into an argument where vaccines cause autism, Andrew Wakefield is a hero and I don’t understand because I’m too high functioning.

I don’t understand autism functioning levels. The best explanation I’ve seen is that high functioning means your difficulties get ignored, and low functioning means your strengths get ignored. When it comes to defining it, no-one can give a definitive answer. Some say it’s based on speech, others on ability to perform self care tasks. others on supposed intelligence. When done over the internet, people who can communicate online are normally “diagnosed” as high functioning.

Autism does cause me difficulties, even though I don’t have any associated learning disabilities or epilepsy. Most of it is stuff that no-one really gets to see unless they spend a lot of time with me (or happen to be around at the wrong time). I have meltdowns. During them, I have self harmed (not consciously- it just happens in an attempt to get the pain to stop). I had meltdowns in public until I became too ill to go out.

Meltdowns are scary. They happen when I’m overloaded, and since the world isn’t designed for autistic people, that used to happen an awful lot. As a teenager I’d be verbally aggressive and if anyone tried to touch me, would lash out. Sometimes I’d run away from the situation. As I got older and learnt to internalise it more, it would appear like a panic attack, and I’d bite my hand or scratch my skin or whack my head off the closest wall. I’d hum or scream to try and drown stuff out. Crying and trying anything to make it stop.

Other times I’d shut down instead. Less dramatic looking but just as terrifying to me. The outside world would be distant and feel wrong. I’d be unable to process anything and unable to think. Often I’d be very still (unusual for me – I was in constant motion normally, even if it was just my fingers or feet that were moving). I’d be unable to communicate no matter how much I wanted to. Someone who saw this told me it looked like I wasn’t there, and it scared them because normally I’d respond in some way, even if non verbally.

I’ve been told my meltdowns look like temper tantrums (I was told they were temper tantrums until I found out I was autistic). They scared me because I couldn’t control them. I didn’t want to be acting that way, but I didnโ€™t have conscious control of my body. Both are caused by overload, and itโ€™s like a computer crashing (one where it starts doing weird stuff, the other where it freezes).

I learnt to speak on time. Yet it was never completely reliable for me. I was called quiet or shy as there were times I just couldnโ€™t speak (though it wasn’t noticed as such as when I could I spoke older than I was). The more expectations that were placed on me, the worse my speech reliability got as I had to use the brain power for other stuff. I was often punished for not responding or responding inappropriately and I hated myself as I couldnโ€™t understand why it was so hard.

One area I did excel was academics. This hid a lot of my difficulties as I did well in school. Until I was 16 I had a photographic memory for text, which made learning very easy. I couldn’t manage homework for various reasons but on tests and exams I could perform. Teachers noticed I was clumsy, over sensitive, and that I struggled socially (especially after age 8, which is when my differences started becoming obvious to my peers) yet it was expected that as I was intelligent I’d just learn to be “normal”. It never happened. If I’d not been managing academically I suspect my other difficulties would have been picked up on a lot earlier.

One of the big reasons given to call someone low functioning is not managing toileting independently. I don’t understand the obsession with it. As far as I’m aware I was toilet trained at a normal age, yet as a teenager I started having accidents as I wouldn’t notice I needed the toilet until it was too late (would be called regression by some people). Eventually it was happening frequently enough that I carried spare clothes and a clean up kit whenever I went very far, and kept a spare change of clothes in my locker at college. I’m not surprised that it’s one area the ME made worse (as I have less brain processes to deal with recognising when I need to go, along with now not having control which is probably neurological) so I now wear incontinence pads, which is nowhere near the big deal many people make it out to be. Nor is needing someone else to change them because I can’t do it myself.

I know I’m more able to mimic neurotypical behaviour than some other autistic people, and that (along with being able to type well, and sometimes speak well) is why I’m classed as high functioning. Yet at age 20 I was nearly placed in a care home because I couldn’t live independently (still can’t and even without ME wouldn’t be able to) and I’ve been treated like I couldnโ€™t think for myself when unable to communicate verbally (something that happens to a lot of people with autism and learning disabilities, and is always wrong). The local police thought I should be under a guardianship order due to how I appeared in public when alone. That’s not normally what is associated with high functioning.

It’s mostly luck that I managed to avoid the care home and probably a lifetime of being institutionalised. My social worker found some supported accommodation for me, and my friend Colin provided me with support at night when the workers weren’t there. Vicky moved in with me when I moved out to my own place and we helped each other. Johan moved in with me so that I wouldn’t have to go back into supported accommodation (or a care home) after Vicky moved out and I wasn’t able to even keep myself fed adequately. Louise at college sorted out loads so that paperwork I couldnโ€™t manage got done (along with a ton of other stuff). My mental health problems were partially caused by not being able to cope and being diagnosed as autistic was the start of learning about myself and my depression getting better. Knowing why I struggled helped me to cope with it and either learn ways around my difficulties or know when to accept help to deal with them.

Having severe ME has given me some insight into what it’s like to be more severely disabled, outside of during overload. I’m not always able to understand speech. I’m not always able to communicate (at all when I’m paralysed). It’s incredibly frustrating. Even more frustrating is when my communication isn’t recognised, and at its worst has meant my basic needs weren’t met (I went 18 hours without going to the toilet, having needed medication or having a drink because the care home I was in wouldn’t listen to me if I couldnโ€™t speak, despite being told it happens). I can’t always get my body to do what I want it to do (caused by both autism and ME) and when unable to communicate in any other way, it comes out in violence. Over the years I’ve both gained skills and lost them. Now I rely on other people for pretty much everything, though I’m grateful I can usually type. The times I’ve been treated as unable to understand or think for myself I’ve ended up overloaded, and if I were treated like that all the time instead of occasionally I wouldn’t be able to show what I could do, or learn new skills. I imagine that’s the case for at least some autistic people who are labelled low functioning. Being treated like a capable human being, who deserves the support I need, lets me be the best Danni I can be.

At times my difficulties have been dismissed as it’s assumed that because I can do one thing, I can do something else. At others it’s been assumed that because I can’t do something, I can’t do things I can do. To me it’s normal for people to assume when I can’t speak that I can’t understand. It’s wrong but it happens a lot. I want everyone to get the support they need to be the best they can be, whether that’s social support from friends, help with personal care tasks from carers, or anything else. Every person deserves to be treated as human, no matter what.

(I’m sorry if this is confusing or muddled. I’ve been trying to write it for several days and as most of it has been typed on my tablet, I couldn’t see much of what I’d written. My brain fog has been worse than normal so typing which is normally one of my strengths has been hard.)

Dopey Danni

My blog post to-do list is growing. One of them I’ve made a start on, but I’m really struggling to write it. Most of that is because I’m now taking the domperidone three times a day and it makes me really dopey. I can cope with it- it’s not the worst side effect I’ve had to deal with by a long stretch, but it does mean I have very little brain power for things like writing blog posts that aren’t just a stream of consciousness.

The dopeyness has meant I’ve not been up to much. I’ve been on my computer everyday but I’ve not even logged into World of Warcraft for a bit as it’s just too much. I’ve spent a lot of time watching kittehs and some watching penguins. I have caught up with Total Biscuit’s Hearthstone videos finally, which is something. I love his gimmick decks as they’re really entertaining, and even if my speech processing is poor (though TB’s voice is easier than most for me to understand) I can at least see what’s happening for myself.

I’ve had no speech myself for a few days. It’s starting to get annoying. The new AAC app is really helping with that, though when I’m on my computer it’s a little awkward to use as I don’t have speakers connected to it at the moment. What I really need to do is get the front headphone jack hooked up so I can plug my headphones in there, my speakers hooked up again and then figure out having the different programs going out of different audio outputs. There’s got to be an easy way to do it but my brain is too bleh to figure it out (and I don’t have the speakers in here at the moment).

I’ve started using HabitRPG. It basically is a to-do list turned into a game. Being stuck in bed I can’t add the usual stuff to it (cleaning, going out, trying to exercise more) so I’ve had to be a bit creative in adding my habits, dailies and to-dos. While I’m still getting used to it the domperidone is down as a habit to work on, but once I’m taking it reliably I’ll be moving it over as a daily. My to-dos have various things on it, including the blog posts I want to write. Some of them require help though, like getting my penguin pictures on the wall and contacting social services about the hoist. It’s fun and I’m part of the Nerdfighters guild which I got talking about penguins ๐Ÿ˜€

I accidentally wiped the data partition on my tablet while trying to update the Google Apps on it (I have them integrated into the ROM). Since I’d done that and Paranoid Android is currently in the process of reworking a lot of its features, I took the opportunity to try a different ROM out. I’m now on PAC-man, which I tried before but had issues with at the time. This time it seems to be working okay despite me being on the nightlies, and I really like some of the extra features. I also changed my font to Comic which made Johan facepalm but reminds me of Doge so I’m happy.

I can’t remember if I mentioned it here, but I discovered Johan had set the spam filter on our email server to automatically reject spam, and that it was definitely having some false positives of my email. Included in that was an email from EE, so there’s a good chance they actually responded to my email to them in December and it got eaten. Because of this, I’ve moved over to Google Apps for my email. Right now I’m importing all my emails from my other GMail account so I can have the few I still need to reply to in the right place. Since I basically archived all my emails from 2009 it’s going to take a while ๐Ÿ˜› I’m hoping it’ll be done by tomorrow. As I still have them all on the other account, I’ll be deleting all but the recent ones to try and keep this one a bit clearer. I wish there was an easy way to just import the recent emails, but forwarding screws up the replying (I tried) and there’s no date selection tool that I found. Some of the emails I’ve seen are from when I was living alone, and it really reminded me about how badly that went. I know I can’t manage living independently, but it feels weird to see emails about how I would forget to eat and stuff. Not that it’s much improved now, but at least with the two of us one of us has a chance to remember.

Since I’m going to be paying for Google Apps (in a free trial at the moment) I want to take advantage of things like the custom domains. Johan couldn’t understand why I wanted them, but to me it’s obvious. As he controls the DNS at the moment and I don’t have the details I have to wait for him to do it and I’m quite impatient as I can’t click the button until the DNS is changed. I have changed the logo to a purple penguin one which makes me happy though ๐Ÿ™‚

Primrose, my new microwaveable penguin, is fitting in well. She’s not quite as silly as the other penguins but I’m sure she’ll learn. She was disapproving of me changing my font on my tablet to Comic so I need to give her an education on Doge and similar things. She does help me with pain relief along with Penguin, and Penny and Po keep me company while they’re in the kitchen. Penelope wants a wheelchair so I am needing to find a penguin sized one (she thinks they’re cool).

Johan went out on Saturday to see some friends we’d made on Twitter who happen to be local. From what he told me it went well and he brought me back cake, which was amazing. Since Johan wasn’t too far away I was okay with being left, as he had money for a taxi if an emergency did crop up. With my carer coming though it was fine. He has discovered that if he uses his inhaler he can manage around cats much better. Turns out treating asthma helps ๐Ÿ˜‰ I’m trying to convince him to take his preventative inhaler twice a day as he’s meant to, so hopefully he will get less symptoms as that builds up in his system.

I’m hoping the dopeyness eases off as I get used to the new medication. Unfortunately it’s not having a great job dealing with my nausea so I’m sometimes having to take cyclizine as well, which really doesn’t help. It is making my digestive system more noisy than normal so hopefully it means it’s working to try and get things moving out of my stomach. Otherwise I’m going to be lying here pretty much useless for a while, and I don’t want that. I need to get into Minecraft soon to figure out getting to the moon, but that requires brain power I don’t have right now. Hopefully soon ๐Ÿ™‚

Body Trolling

First of all, I’ve recently started reading another ME blog, Documenting M.E. Brooke wrote a blog post about living in bed that I found really helpful, including telling me about an Android AAC app that does pretty much everything I need to do so I don’t need to get an iPad now. The blog post is Tips on truly living from bedย (the Android app is Speech Assistant AAC). The blog post is really good so I recommend you go read it ๐Ÿ™‚

So, stuff has happened. Things have not exactly gone entirely to plan. Becca got some sort of viral infection and wasn’t able to stay to go to Comic Con. It looked like she’d be well enough to look after me while Johan went to Leeds, but then she tripped over the cat and fell down the stairs. Ouch. She’s doing better now but she had a massive bruise on her hip and it hurt her to move, so looking after me wasn’t going to happen.

Unfortunately I was too ill to go into the care home, so we managed to get some agency carers to stay with me on Thursday so Johan could still go see the ballet with Vicky. It meant he couldn’t see his parents though so we need to sort that out soon. I got lucky with the carers considering how short notice it was – had my normal morning call, a lunch call (that ended up being just after 11am as the carer couldn’t fit me in otherwise, but I went back to sleep so it worked well in the end) then my normal carer as a sit in from 1.30-7pm.

Partway through the afternoon I started having terrible stabbing pains in my right back when urinating. As I was calling out in pain the carer came to check on me, and we decided to phone the doctor. One of the GPs came out within an hour, and with my symptoms and history guessed it was an infection and prescribed the antibiotics that worked last time. The carer went to the pharmacy for me to get them so Johan didn’t have to worry when he got back.ย Johanโ€™s train was delayed, and the carer insisted she was okay to stay until he got back. He said he enjoyed the ballet, though it moved a bit too fast. Vicky had an exam the next morning so would be arriving the next day.

Friday morning I felt terrible. Hot, sweaty, and generally bleh. That and the pain had spread to most of my urinary system. Definitely felt like an infection. I was glad I’d started the antibiotics the night before so it wouldn’t be too long. Ibuprofen brought my temperature back down and that helped a bit. Vicky arrived that day but I was asleep for most of it so didn’t really see her. Saturday morning I felt better until I took the antibiotics that morning. The fortisip I’d drank had made me a bit nauseous (the antibiotics had to be taken after food) and adding the antibiotic on top made it loads worse. I kept it down as long as I could but it got too much after about half an hour. I hoped it was long enough and took some antiemetics to try and get it under control. As they put me to sleep I didn’t see much of Vicky that evening either, as I woke up just before she had to sleep.

Sunday morning I was awake before Vicky left to go to church and go home. I saw her for a little bit which was good ๐Ÿ™‚ I felt a bit guilty that I’d slept through most of her visit but it couldn’t be helped. She’s going off to Palestine and Israel for a year for her PhD so it will be a while until I see her again. I am going to miss her but I hope she gets a lot out of it. Next time, I hope I can go see the ballet with her and Johan ๐Ÿ™‚ My antibiotics were only a three day course as we started it so early (a couple of hours after the first symptoms showed) and they seemed to have done the job by the time I’d finished. I’m a little achy when peeing now but that happened after the last infection and disappeared after a few days.

Other things that happened were seeing my normal GP (before the kidney infection) and she tried me on metoclopramide, which made me very agitated and feel wrong. Not being able to stop moving when moving causes my ME to get worse is a definite bad thing. I stopped them and she prescribed me domperidone to take instead. I postponed them initially until after Johan had gone to Leeds in case of side effects, and then because I wanted to get the kidney infection out of the way so I’d know what effect they were having better. I took one dose yesterday and so far today (I’m starting them slowly after what happened with the metoclopramide) and it has made me even more dopey and weird feeling than normal, and a bit hungry, but otherwise it wasn’t too bad. I have to take them 60-90 minutes before food which will be interesting.

CFS team came out today. Went about as well as it could. They’re gonna come back in two months and in the meantime I’m to keep going with what I’m doing (basically a few stretches to prevent my legs from being unable to straighten and trying to sit up as much as I can without payback) and try and get social services to sort out the hoist. Johan also gave me a wash and helped me put my rainbow dress on as I wanted something different to my normal pyjamas today ๐Ÿ™‚

I have upgraded my desktop computer Matilda to Windows 8.1 Pro. I have Windows 8 on my laptop, but as I don’t use that at the moment I’ve missed some of the improvements that are in the new version of Windows. I’m not amazingly keen on the Metro interface, but I renewed my subscription to Object Desktop by Stardock so after downloading Start 8, Decor8, ModernMix and a few other little programs it’s now a perfect mix between the advantages of the newer OS (it runs a bit faster, has a much better task manager and some of the Metro apps are good) and having the start menu and running all programs on the desktop from Windows 7. I also have Pikachu as my Start button which made Johan facepalm but I like him ๐Ÿ™‚ I still couldn’t find a twitter app that does what I want so I installed BlueStacks so I could run Android with Plume. It runs loads better than it used to and if I could use the mouse scroll wheel with Android it would be perfect (it kinda works, but it scrolls slightly more than one page at a time so it’s not exactly practical). A touchscreen would be nice as well, but using it with a keyboard and mouse works fine with the added programs.

My friends are awesome. Seeing Vicky was another reminder that I have the most awesome friends. When I improve and start getting out again I hope to see some more of my friends in real life, but I’m glad I can see what they’re up to using social media while I’m stuck in bed. I am worried that Johan doesn’t get to see his friends often enough. I’m hoping to persuade him to try the local tabletop gaming club (one exists in Newcastle), maybe on International Tabletop Day (5th April). He’s not sure but I think he’ll enjoy it and if he doesn’t, he can leave. Being able to go and do something not related to looking after me would be good for him, and yet it’s close enough that in an emergency he could get home quickly. Using the care agency for sit ins regularly isn’t really an option (last week’s will be about ยฃ70 for a few hours) and most of his friends don’t live locally, so I’m hoping he’ll make some in the area or at least enjoy playing games. I’m also hoping he’ll be a

It makes me sad when my friends aren’t well. As a lot of them have various chronic illnesses, I normally consider it relatively (though obviously I wish they weren’t ill at all). A few of them are struggling (physically, mentally or emotionally) and I wish I could just make them feel better. Sometimes I feel helpless when I’m unable to chat to them or do anything that might make them feel better. My friends have done so much to make me feel like I’m wanted and worth caring for and I want my friends to know they’re awesome and I love them, even if I’m not always able to show it. I love them and I want them to be happy, no matter what happens.

Stolen Meme Goodness – Old Schooling

I’ve got lots of things I want to blog about, so of course I can’t seem to manage any of them. Instead, here’s a meme I stole from Stimey.


What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Part of a My Little Pony episode. I realised I had no idea what was going on halfway through and haven’t finished it yet. I’ve still got stuff to watch from Christmas.

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Last time I stepped outside was one step while held up by two ambulance men to get from the front door of my old flat onto a stretcher, in December 2011 (I couldn’t really walk but it counts). I was going to hospital to get some teeth removed. Last time I went outside was in January. I went to the bottom of the ramp in my wheelchair to see outside and it was amazing.

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A penguin that Sammie painted when she was in nursery. She gave me it a few years ago. I’ve yet to get my other pictures and posters up, but it’ll happen at some point.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A bungalow with lots of adaptations to make it accessible to Danni’s. A special hospice for those who are severely ill and need extra quiet and care. An awesome computer ๐Ÿ˜€ I’d also employ some awesome people to help me and Johan out.

Tell me something about you that most people donโ€™t know.
In year 7 I won an award for RE presented by the Archdeacon of Liverpool. In year 9 I failed my RE exam by falling asleep during it.

Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
An unknown number on my mobile. We suspect it was the GP surgery as they phoned our landline a couple of minutes later. I don’t use the phone.

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?
Get that hoist I need installed. Figure out a way of installing a bath. As it’s a flat we’re limited in what we could do building wise, so moving would probably work better for bigger stuff.

What was the last thing you bought?
A phone charger for a friend. Before that, Windows 8.1 Pro and Object Desktop for my computer (yay discounts!).

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
When I’m a bit better, definitely. Not sure my body could tolerate either right now ๐Ÿ˜‰

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
How do I work out what famous means? There are a lot of people I’d like to have dinner with who are pretty well known, at least in the communities I’m in. I think having dinner with Maureen Johnson would be interesting.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
First I need to get a credit card, then it depends if I have to pay it back again ๐Ÿ˜‰ I love geeky shops, book shops, and small shops with awesome things. If I have to pay it back, I’m most likely going to spend it on something we need.

Is the glass half empty or half full?
I don’t know as I can’t see it. My hydrant is empty as I just finished the juice in it. The glass might just be twice as large as it needs to be. In the metaphorical sense, it’s kinda both. There’s good and bad in the world, and though I try and concentrate on the positives that doesn’t mean the negatives aren’t there.

Whatโ€™s the farthest-away place youโ€™ve been?
Either Calais, France or Balmedie, Aberdeenshire, Scotland. France is more foreign but at the time Balmedie was further from Liverpool. I need to see which is now I’ve moved north east ๐Ÿ™‚

Whatโ€™s under your bed?
I’m not meant to have anything under my bed as it’s a hospital one. In reality I have a storage bag of clothes, and whatever I’ve knocked off the bed or tables (there’s probably a few penguins, milkshake bottle tops, empty blister packs, small sweets that insist on escaping like smarties).

What is your favourite time of the day?
Probably nighttime. I’m naturally nocturnal and it tends to be quieter. Also, any time of day where my painkillers have kicked in and my symptoms aren’t too bad.

What Inspires you?
People who are able to keep going, especially when life is being crappy. Also those who are strong enough to ask for help when they need it, or know when to stop (it’s often harder than trying to push through). Also penguins.

If you want to do this meme, I’d like to read your responses, whether on your blog or in the comments. Also, Stimey’s responses cheered me up ๐Ÿ™‚ Proper blog post coming when able.