Snow is White

I think I may have overdone it yesterday, as I’ve spent more time today asleep than I have awake. I even missed Computing at college. Whoops. I am also in a lot more pain than normal, which is bad. I am growly and grizzly, and struggling to get my thoughts into words. Instead of doing productive things, like homework or studying for Monday’s test, I’ve been levelling another WoW character (a Night Elf Priestess called DannΓ­… humm…) on a US realm, so I don’t have to deal with Real ID or Guild stuff. Yes, I’m still upset. Yes, I’m fully aware that I’m being completely and totally irrational, but right now I feel guilty and useless and don’t want to upset other people. Funny what pain can do to you. Oh, and I’ve been watching some Dollhouse, just because it’s awesome.

I upset Johan today. This is very bad.

There is a lot of snow outside. Apparently it will stay outside for several days. That makes getting out difficult. Maybe I stay inside.

Deathy is Cute

This is a very short post because I’m still exhausted, and also in a lot of pain and not coping with it.

I made it to college today, and I don’t think I made a fool of myself in Computing. I chatted to my friend Sarah afterwards, got my lunch then attempted to nap in the chill out room (but couldn’t because all I could hear was the table tennis). Then I watched the fencing for a bit then went on my laptop, then came home, buying a hoody on the way.

Since I got home I watched the WoW Insider stream then played Facebook games. I also received my Deathy pet, so I logged into WoW for a few minutes to collect it.

Now I’m about to go to bed. Luckily I’m only in college for Computing tomorrow evening, so plenty of time to sleep and maybe even do my homework. Here’s hoping.

In the fight between Danni and herself, the winner is…

I woke up this morning with a very sore eye, and several new bruises. I think I may have been beating myself up. Everything seems to still be working (within the normal limits I now have) so it’s not too serious.

Today was relatively quiet, until the evening. I finally reached exalted with the Zandalar Tribe (woot!) with help from the auction house and guildies Vitani and Eldrana (I think). (Sorry Quel’Thlaas Alliance- it was me who cleared out all the Bijous.) I now have a lot of coins to pass on to anyone else in the guild who is trying to reach that goal, but so far no-one has come forward. I think I will have to advertise a bit more in guild chat.

This evening I met up with Vicky to go to church. It went well, and the service was enjoyable. We then went to Dixy Chicken to get some food (I likes chicken) before coming home. Spending time with Vicky is always a lot of fun, as we know each other pretty well and find a lot of the same things funny. She is a good friend.

Tomorrow I have college, and get to see my psychiatrist for what’s probably my last appointment. That should be interesting.

Zul’Gurub

Just a quick post tonight as I’m in Zul’Gurub in World of Warcraft, grinding for rep. I’m currently at ~32% of the way through revered, and my aim is to get to 999/1000 exalted before the Cataclysm hits and the instance goes away. I’m being assisted by some awesome guildies, Vitani and Triggira, who are passing all the coins and bijous on to me. Thank you πŸ˜€ Johan’s also come along on Sarontir to help with getting through the instance.

Today I overdid it. I was already having a bad day pain-wise, but decided to go to the Tyneside LUG anyway. I managed to stay for a little bit, but had to leave early (after arriving late) because I was just too tired and the noise was overwhelming. I enjoyed it though, and it was nice to see everyone again.

This evening I have been in WoW. We went and did Black Temple, which was fun, and of course now we’re in Zul’Gurub. I’m glad to have a game that’s interesting, and that allows me to socialise in a way that’s suited to me. I’ve also got a bit tipsy tonight, which has helped with the pain a bit (I’m not sure whether the alcohol reduced the pain or made me care less about it, but it’s helping). Tonight I should sleep well.

October

I’ve not blogged properly this month. Bad Danni. Quite a bit has happened, and I hope to get most of it down here.

I’ve been diagnosed with ME. This isn’t a big surprise, as I’ve been ill now for 14 months and my blood tests and things are normal, while my symptoms match. The main symptom for me is muscle and joint pain that isn’t relieved by normal painkillers (ibuprofen and paracetamol), but I’m also exhausted, and often my legs won’t hold me so I can’t walk at all. I have to use the wheelchair all the time when I go out now, which sucks a bit but I guess it’s what it is there for. There have also been a couple of particularly bad days where I’ve had to use it in the flat as well, but luckily that’s not a common thing.

I also have quite a lot of the other symptoms (brain fog, word finding issues, post exercise fatigue that normally causes the leg failure mentioned above) that make life a bit more difficult. The brain fog and stuff makes college interesting, as I have a very poor short and medium term memory (worse than I already had from dyspraxia and stuff) so have to write everything down. It’s not going too badly though, and my Computing test results have been good so far (100% on both of them is good, yes?). I have had to miss a few lessons because of exhaustion, which isn’t great but I’m doing my best to go in.

In Interface, we’re meant to be looking for work experience. Unfortunately, the one I want to do I can’t because it’s upstairs and there is no lift. I’m also a bit worried about work experience in general, because right now I’m simply not well enough to do it. I’m managing college through stubbornness and because it’s familiar, and adding something extra isn’t going to help. I’m also rather ill at the moment (relative to the last year, so since I got ME) and dreading college, not because of the lessons but because I’m not sure how I’m going to stay awake and alert for at least 12 hours a day. This half term I’ve been taking naps during the day, of between 15 minutes and 3 hours. I’m also in a lot of pain, and because of the medication I’m on to keep my brain under control I can’t have any painkillers, so I’m also rather grumpy and grouchy. Realistically, I know I shouldn’t be going to college at all and should be staying home and resting, but I’m determined to get through this year, and so long as I can get dressed (even if I need help) I’m going in.

On Wednesday I went to the Centre for Life with my friend Dean, who was at Interface with me a couple of years ago. We got to see the Doctor Who exhibition, and it was a lot of fun πŸ™‚ It was nice seeing him, as since he lives quite far from me and he’s no longer at college we don’t have that much contact in real life (though we talk online sometimes).

Apart from sleeping (I do a lot of sleeping these days) I’ve been playing a bit of World of Warcraft. Got some of our guildies the Kingslayer title (I already had it from the first time our guild killed Arthas, back in June with the 20% buff), and managed to do some hard modes, including Saurfang, which we managed to 2 shot. I’m not sure if it’s the 4.0.1 changes that made it easier, or just that we had an awesome group, or both, but that was a brilliant moment for our raid. I honestly think that if we get a similar progression group together more often, we could get most of the hard modes in ICC down before Cataclysm comes out. It depends on what the guild wants, though.

As for Cataclysm, I’m really excited for it. I have the collector’s edition preordered from Amazon, which should arrive on the 7th December. I watched the Blizzcon stream which was awesome, and made me wish I could have been there. Maybe in a couple of years πŸ™‚ The login screen and the cinematics are just amazing, and with the changes coming in 4.0.3 I’m really looking forward to it.

I’ve probably missed a lot of stuff, but that goes with the poor memory. Today is Hallowe’en, and so far we’ve had no trick or treaters, though we have got through a bag of Haribo Spooky Mix. Tomorrow is the 1st of November, which is the start of NaBloPoMo. This year, I’m going to try and post every day for the month, and as I liked it last year (on my previous blog) I will be posting a video everyday, on whatever takes my fancy. Hopefully I’ll also type a few words to go along with it.

Also tomorrow is Autistics Speaking Day. I will be blogging about something related to autism and communication, and I may be hosting a guest blog post for the day as well. More information on that tomorrow πŸ™‚